icky, haha. um ok yea its only 7:10, and im already really really tired. i would go to bed if going to bed this early wudnt make me wake up at like 6 in the morning. its bad enough i cant sleep past 8 in the morning. once i see sunlight im up. thats all there is to it. if i wake up and open my eyes, im pretty much awake. which makes me really tired during the day. bc i didnt get enough sleep. but i am really tired. i might actually go to bed soon. i could get a head start on tomorrow, have some energy for once. today i dont know why but i kept gettin dizzy everytime i went to stand up or something, and i was ate a few things today so it wasnt that, bc usually wheni dont eat that happens, but to day i did eat so it wasnt that. my mother is , well not really drunk, but if she drank alittle more she might be. she had at least a whole four pack and then a bottle of some kind of clear alcohol idk what it was with orange juice. yea she is gettin annoying now, i shud go to bed before she starts yelling at me. which happens when she drinks. and its always about stupid shit, that makes no sense, so i just try not to say anything at all. i just sit here and nod my head to make acknowledgments of her speaking to me. she just told me i need to learn how to cook a turkey, good corn and decafinated tea, see that would be really wierd for her to say if tomorrow wasnt thanksgiving, but its still kinda weird. one time at a halloween party two years ago, she started talking about a guy named thomas that i had a crush on....i dont know anyone named thomas. and i never have. that was the same night she caught the ironing board on fire. long story. well not really but i dont feel like explaining it. it wudnt make anymore sense. im tired, im going to go to bed and hopefully dream of ....purple flying monkeys.....