yesterday while we were at the mall, daryl and i started talking about davy and bryan, and how when people talk about getting married or dating after highschool, it never works out. but when they dont talk about it, and just go with it until it happens, then it does work out. and how bryan was one of those guys who likes to be in relationships becuase he needs it for some reason. something he lacks in another area i'd say. and then how their relationship was one of those i love you, oh i love im so much type thing almost right at the start. and he siad that stephanie did the same thing to him. then those army guys came out and asked me if i wanted to travel at one point, and daryl asked me, what if no one could go with me,would i still want to go. and i said no. of course not. and i know he knew what i was talking about, i wouldnt want to leave him behind. so i said after they left, that i did want to visit europe after i got out of college for a little bit. and he said that would be cool so i siad he could come with me. then we started talking about sharing a house there and how his side would be all clean and mine would be all messy. which is funny because its absolutely true. then we both thought that would be really great. and talked about finding jobs there...and he siad that he might even want to go into my profession of being a psychologist. which would be awesome to me. and then when we were in the movies, klye moved to the row below us, and we were sitting in the back row. and i kept wanting to lay on him, but i just couldnt make myself do it. then he said he wished he was as cool as zorro...bc that preview was on, and i said for the chicks? and he said no, and i was like well she's pretty hot...catherine zeta jones..or whatever, and he said that he didnt know her, and girls he didnt know were like a big turn off. and i dont think he ever siad that to me but yeah i know that now. and then i said the same thing about guys, which is true, because i dont really like any famous guys or obsess over them like other girls do, i like johnny depp because of his awesome acting and stuff, and the types of movies he plays in, but i mean, i wouldnt do him or anything...and well i do like amy lee and kate beckinsale..but that's different. i just think they're really pretty. and then half way through the movie..or close to it..my hands started to get really cold like they usually do and i put them on his arm and ..well just to show him they were cold and he said i could keep them there but i didnt. then pretty close to the end, i finally put my arm in his and said my hands were really cold and laid on his sholder. and i almost cried. i dont know why, but i had this strange urge to cry, and then i felt like i could stay there forever...right there in that position all night. it took me almost the entire movie to get the nerve to actually do it. and i dont see why it did. i guess its because i dont want to get that close to him, well i want to sort of..but i dont think i should since josh and jesse and all. i mean like what if i did, or had..and then when school started i went out with someone else...that wouldnt be very nice. so i tried to contain myself. then before the movie we were sitting in front of the mall again, and i was playing with his cell phone. and i turned it on and the first thing it said was i love sylvia. and i dont know if he noticed i saw it but i thouhgt it was, well i dont know but it was just like him i guess. then on the way to kyle's house...my hands got cold again but you know i kinda needed at least one to drive, so he took my other hand and sort of held it, ish, for a little bit until i had to make a turn and needed both hands. but the weirdest thing, when we walked out of the theatre..i was smiling. i was happy. and i didnt even notice until he siad something. and i just siad, oh it was even better the second time. like i was thinking about the movie..which i sort of was. i guess. yesterday was really one of the best days i've had in a while. and i told him that, and i was really serious. i didnt want to go home, partly because my mom was a bit mad that i was home so late...but mostly because i didnt want to go home. so yeah, then on the way to his house he was talking about his uncle, who hit him last week and that made me so sad. i didnt say anything, but it really did make me sad, i felt like crying right there...i started to when i read it in his email...he doesnt deserve that. but i guess that's all i wanted to say in here, i'm glad i could write it out though..i feel better now.