well yesterday i was being all bitchy. i really dont like doing that but i had no one else to tell so i thought i'd put it up here. i know that i help people feel better sometimes. i was just being a jealous because matt's my best friend and now he seems to be stevie's also, which i can deal with. i was just having a....an, um.... a moment. so sorry if i offended anyone. really kinda boring today. mondays always seems to suck, and i was real tired today. i actually slept on the bus going home. going to bed early tonight...yes i am. actually probly not, but i should. mom's still not better. she hasnt worked in almost a week now. she had her tubes tied, then afterwards stuff kept going wrong and she wasnt feeling good so they did this other surgery last wednesday, then they found out she has tumor in her uterus, so now she has to have a hysterectamy. sounds like fun, right....uh, no. she wont be able to work until she gets better, and she wont get better until she has this other opperation, and i dont know when that will be. so if i dont get online for a while after this, it's because my mom isnt making any money or going anywhere and she cant pay my interent bill. or perhaps the phone bill, or maybe even the light bill, hmm, or maybe not any bill. anyways, another entry of complaining...oh well, that's what i do best isnt it.