well i was reading some past entries about josh. man i miss him so much. i said in one that i hated him and i was over him and i said that a little while ago but im still not over him. i guess its bc he was my last bf and i had so much love for him. i wish he wud come back. even if we were just friends i wish that he was around. he probly has another gf, or is leading a few other ones on. who knows. i might not ever see him again this time. i guess there will be plenty of other guys who break my heart like he did. but he was the last one so i guess im just waiting for the next one.