five months and five days it seems like forever i dont think he knows how much i really need him when i'm not around him all i want to do is cry...like last night... yesterday he said i was beautiful...they've never said that. after he siad that my whole mood changed and i felt like asking him if he really meant it. i took his shirt yesterday...and i cant stop myself from putting my face in it. i love the way it feels when when i'm laying with him...just laying there...even when we're not talking. whenever he's near me or in sight i cant stand not touching him. and i hate having to depend on my mother's current mood to figure out wheither i can go see him or not. sometimes i really hate her.