you know how...you start to think of things that have happened to you in the past...and it's usually really sad...and you just wish it would all go away and not bother you so much...well i'm having one of those times.. i've never had a boyfriend on valentine's day. i've never had one at this time of the year...but this same time last year i was still having problems with guys...and the year before..but this year i have mike and i should be really happy about that...but i dont know... and..it's not even josh this time... ------------------------------------------- ok well my day got a whole lot better. my mom called and said i could go out..so at like 6 i went to mike's house and didnt have to be home till ten thirty...so we had sex...and ....yeah it was really great...we broke his wall though...yeah...i wont get into all that... anyways..im seeing him again tomorrow and i hope i dont get in trouble for my mom trying to call me and im not answering bc im online.. i love my boyfriend he's the best thing in my life besides my brother...and i cant stop smiling...