arggghh, i must stop all this nonsense of josh. he is doing nothing but causing me depression. grr i hate him. i must turn my attentions to someone more deseving...hmm lets see. oh yea zach. oh gee that seems to be very productive. hmmp. he asked me friday when i went to sit by him if i liked him and i was like yea and then he said well its a good thing im available or some such hockey. do you believe in life after love. ack i dont even know why i am listening to cher. must be because her cd was just sitting there by my computer doing nothing. it was so tempting i couldnt help myself. resisting temptation is not my strongest quality. if i even have one. hmm good thing to ponder. school is tomorrow. oh yay. sometimes i think i shudnt even bother with guys. maybe i shud be a lesbian. hmm. i wud if my family wudnt disown me for going against our religious beleifs. im not exactly big on it myself but hey people make their own decisions. i have thought about it tho. eh but neways. what strange thoughts i have. why better to freak you out with my dear.