well today was exhausting. first i woke up late again...becuase my dad called me last night and made me stay up really late crying. apparently my mom called him to say i was doing...some stuff..of which i didnt want him to know..and that wasnt exactly true. then i havent had a cigarette since sunday morning and i dont even really remember it becuase it was when i had first woken up and i was still...drunk sort of. a lot of crap is going on..it's a lot to think about...i'm so tired...as soon as school let out my mom called and siad i had to work with her...so i went. and i have to do it again tomorrow. and thursday i'm supposed to go find a job. and friday i have to babysit. and saturday i have to work with my mom again..i cant wait to get a job..i'm so sick of going to work with her. but i love mike becuase he's the greatest thing ever so it's not completely bad. cheers.