i'm still quite tired. but i'm very very grateful i dont have to work today. my mom told me last night that i should try for another job. she wants me to have two jobs. i was thinking of it myself actually. the pay check for the one i have now wont be that big...at all. i ran into a butterfly on the way home. and then i started thinking...the butterfly..just flying across the road and WHAM! got hit by my car. all of a sudden unconscience and never seeing light again. it might not have died right away..it could have been laying in the road...wings flapping in the wind like it was trying to get up..thinking..why me..why today...i was doing just fine until that damned car came along. meh i dont know what else to say. except i hope mike wont hate me if i didnt go out with him and instead went out with someone else. he would probably be very hurt...since i cant make up my mind. the day after i said that i would say yes to him...i say i want to wait. and he doesnt know why, as far as i know...i dont think i'll say why just yet. so as not to jinx myself. that would suck. you know what...today jose told me that i was being mean to him...what in the bloody hell. i saw him in the library on the computer when i was in that period...and he went to guitartabs.com..which sucks ass...so i told him to go to mxtabs.net instead. and then he said i was being smart and made him feel stupid...its an effing guitar tab site. i dont understand him sometimes....apparently though he's gotten over whatever it was he was holding against me..and even wants hugs...strange...he's just weird like that i guess. i just got the urge to watch charlie and the chocolate factory...and i cant. oh guess what...the corpse bride comes out on the 23rd...wooness...only 29 more days...yay. mmm i dont know what else to say..so i'll just not say anything else. cheers then.