well today was interesting. there is a wire on the back of my braces that is sticking out because the stupid chick who did my teeth yesterday couldnt do anything. so she forgot to clip it..my dad tried to do it...yeah..not such a good idea. now its bent out and it hurts. i have to wait until tuesday to get it fixed. its going to drive me insane. i went fishing with my dad today. it was probably the best day of fishing i've ever had in my life. we caught like 30 something fish and well, we only kept about 5 but we put them back before leaving. i almost caught an 8 pound bass. ah it as so awesome. i've never even seen a bass that big...well, alive anyways. it got off though because i'm not that great at fishing..mostly it was tiny ones..but i still caught most of them. worms are icky... dont you think? i made my dad do all of that stuff...i can take a fish off of a hook...and hold fish..and do whatever with them, but not worms. nope...wont do it...man, im such a chick. i still miss mike... i kept thinking about him today and it made me almost laugh out loud a few times. how did i get so lucky? i have homework this weekend. oh yeah..and detention next tuesday. man ...that means i wont have time to go see the dentist on tuesday either...i'll have to wait until thursday. man this sucks balls. they close before i can get there after work...and i dont have enough time before...maybe i'll just have to be late on wednesday or something. anyways, i still cant wait until monday. and i smell like fishing..you know the worm, fish, sunscreen smell....yeah, that one. man i'm such a dork, i dont know what's wrong with me sometimes...i feel really weird right now..like i'm not myself or something, i'm not even typing the usual words i'd use. my grandmother talked to me this morning about pda. she says it doesnt show good manners or proper upbringing. my dad talked to me, as well. and, just as i suspected, he had the whole sex conversation for about twenty minutes...without really saying what he was talking about..just hinting around it and hoping i was on the same planet as him..which i was, but that's only because i know how my dad is. and it's pretty easy to talk to him ..or well for him to talk to me about things, becuase he doenst actually say anything. he just says stuff that is supposed to make sense ,...and stuff. well it really mad me angry this morning talking to her. she practically said that all of my friends and their parents have no manners. i dont care what she thinks...it's not 1950 anymore, people show their affection whether she likes it or not. i'll just have to be really really careful from now on. but this only means i'll have to see mike a lot more outside of school, to make up for it. since my mom already said she'd rather me be off from school doing worse things..than hugging someone at school...yeah...that makes sense. and of course..just like every teenager that ever lived...who had parents at least...they dont understand...they dont know who i am..blah blah blah..the whole my parents dont understand me ritual that is heard from the aspect of every teenager's point of view on life. it's so typical....the funny thing is we all say "it wont happen to me" as if we would actually think our parents are wells of knowledge and we just love to hear them rabble on and on about how we dont know anything and they are always right. teenage life is so predictable. in a sense, we're all the same. and that is very sad. of course we're all individuals, but still, we all want to be "different" (some of us more than others..thank god...) we all hate our parents at some point because they take away, or flat out deprive us of some resource we think is our reason for living. and we say, yeah i wont let it happen again...certainly, i've learned my lesson...just to go back the next day and do it all over again. haven't they figured out that we're not listening? wow, that came totally out of no where...if you actually read that kutos to you, man. i'm going to get some ice cream...to feel a shred of teenage normality...and then i'll get back on to see if anyone wants to talk. (that means you daryl) cheers.