I'm certainly not happy for EC.. not at all. I'm glad I took a semester off... but I wish there was something really good coming out of it, like I took a semester off so I could go to the school i really want to go to at the same time I can't imagine being without him. I can't imagine what it would be like, what we will do, how we will react to me not being right here. i'm scared of what it will do to us. I'd rather be the one to grow apart.. I don't think I could handle him pushing me away again.. I can just imagine in my mind what he would say.. that it's hard because I'm not there and he can't help how he feels and he's sorry. I can picture that in my mind and it's so clear and I'm so scared of him using that as an excuse it's my turn to break away... if anyone's. We could do it. if I came home on weekends.. and he could come see me... and if he means that he can't imagine being without me then I'm sure he can handle this. not seeing eachother every night might be hard and I'd miss him but what is 5 days? not a big deal. and maybe i'll find someone else... maybe I'll find someone who wants to buy me a birthday present.