me and lare are going to the sox in august.. that's all I care about right now. and my head hurts ... soo bad. andd I want to puke. aka... I'm going to get sushi.. and maybe that will make me feel better. ish ahah. i told ben that I didn't want to "just bang" anymore because "its sucking just a bit". he had no response.. yeahh basically. but the next night he decided he wanted to talk about it.. which we didn't really do.. at all.. anddd yes. I don't know. I dont really feel like crap anymore.. when we weren't talking.. and things were like.. notgood.. thats when I was soo ugh... but now that.. we've talked.. I dont know... I'm back to how I was..not hurt.. but just blah. And I think that's good. I think that will go away after a while.. summer is going to be crazy between CBL and Hannigans.. I won't have much time to be annoyed so that is good. whipple is going to be gone forever. which is a bit of a bummer.. but oh well. I don't know what johnny and I are going to do with ourselves.. ugh. head needs to stop hurting soon... otherwise I'm going to burst. andddddd fricken.. life. I don't know. I was in a genuinly good mood today.. which is good.. because its rare.. it was rare even before all this crap with bennn.. andd i realized that we've never been good.. we've had good patches.. but never been good... jesus christ we were best when fricken he was in canada.. which is bulllshit. oh well.