ben asked me to hang out. my response: 'what? why? what? with you? he said.. "I dunno.. I miss you.. more than I think I wanna admit.. and I wanna do something tonight.. and would like you to be apart of it :].. if you would like to..." I told him he did this. it was all his fault he said... "It's up to you, I'm the one who fucked you over and I guess it's in your hands if you want me back. I don't know if you want me back like I want you" he said.. "I know :[.. but I've never lost you like this and I never want this feel again. I miss you like no one else and I want my little muffin back" I just. literally. I didn't know what to say or think or I don't know. I just.. lost it for a second. and I don't know. I just don't know what to do anymore.