I guess I had no idea what it was like to feel so passionately about someone. I say this in a very unattached way, but I guess I never knew what it was like to be so physically attracted to someone. We honestly could not keep our hands of each other. And what I am saying is I definitely don't know what this means for anything. It was a weekend, a weekend of impulse and debauchery and silliness. So what does this mean? What exactly is the protocol for all of this? From what I understand it was pretty incredible for both of us, worth the scrutiny even? NOt only are we incredibly physically attracted to each other, but I have always found him charming and funny. He's very smart person and worldly... I guess if I am going to waste my time with someone it wouldn't hurt to be someone with a brain for once.

So this is where I wonder, where do we go from here? Am I allowed to text him and ask him to hang out? I am never one to beat around the bush, so can I say let's go park my new the and mess around in the back seat? There's a lot of pressure coming from work, he was not happy today when I saw him but I have a feeling he won't tell me why or who said what.

I guess I have learned not to let opportunities pass you by, and I've learned that it's ok to put yourself out there... which I won't do.

I don't want to feel weird about the situation, or hesitant. When we are together everything seems to come naturally and the sex of course was above and beyond what I would have expected. I don't know how embarrassed he was at work today, and I have a feeling he is getting the brunt of the storm. I am having an extremely hard time judging this situation and I certainly don't want to jump the gun on anything. I mean, obviously I am not in love or looking to date him or anything.. but I wouldn't mind this to be the type of situation where you never know what's going to happen...