ar-ight ar-ight ar-ight. I am no longer dieing. or not sleeping.. or feeling like i have this huge friggan anxiety shit fuck. I'm still a little.. blah. buttt thats okay.. I am not being neurotic and ahh yes. good. today he woke me up.. and that was cute.. and just.. disappeared for the day.. he went to lunch / dinner and a movie with his mum and grandmother... and thenn proceded to ask me to come over... neala was here and we were hanging so I didn't leave right away and he said "where are you :[ your thingy is getting cold!"... what thingy? "surprise" okay so he might make me want to stab myself 90% of the time.. but I mean. hes cute. so of course I was being.. slow.. and neala was waiting for larry to make her a baked potato.. and then I left.. and he asked where I was again.. :[ and I was like ahhh highland.. ! and I got there.. and we layed... and he got us DD milkyway hot chocolates... yes. sounds insignificant. butttttt! we were takling about them the other day and talked about trying them.. not the greatest thing I've ever consumed buttttt it was okay. sooo i was happy.. it was cute.. and he got us chocolate thingys.. I say thingys becaus ei dont know what they're called.. other than good. watched the departed. fell asleep. blah blah blah ... don't really hate him anymore. love renee... want to go sleep forever with him. Tristan called yesterday. love him. hate that he wants me. neala and I had the conversation tongiht .. about meeting people.. and hanging out with themm.. at a party or whereever.. and them not wanting you. how good would that be. it's just like.. cant we just be pals? fuckers. neala told noah that I was sseeeing someone.. so he didn't acll me.. which is good.. he was cool.. but his wanting to constantly touch me new years was like ehhh you're fun.. to dance with... but I uhh got someone else for that lovebuggg renee said he was rather into me. ohhh welll.