I dont know what the fuck I am doing. no.. I don't. and I dont know what he's doing.. and I think about him constantly.. when I am not doing anything .. he just pops in there and it is stressing me out. I dont know how he feels about me.. it's not like he could ever talk about it because he's such an ARGGHHHH. why am I stressing out about this.. like seriously, why. its a fucking guy. I need to not be ridiculous and.. I need to get something to take my mind off him. haaa fucking ridiculous. I fell asleep in the chair at like 10.. and woke up at 1 feeling like I needed to do something, like I forgot to take care of something. and I can't sleep now because I feel like I am not getting everything done that I need to. and I am stressing out about aalgebra.. and why would I ever be stressed out about a guy. how fucking ridiculous is that. why don't I just find a guy that isn't stupid.. and that I can hang out with and not get into trouble with. is that so hard to ask for.. yes. of course it is. my head won't stop hurting. Ben got me sick. I feel like crap. But I did get some sun today which was a minor plus to my very long and stupid day.