I'm sad. but it comes out as anger.. I'm so angry..and mean.. I'm hanging out with austin tomorrow... I miss him.. and matt brem on tuesdayy = :) uhhh ben sucks. its upsetting I dont know. I asked him why we were still banging when he liked whoever.. twice.. and he didn't answer.. either time... then there's kaj. he's so sweet.. but ehhh just not my ehh I don't know.. and cam.. I like cam.. erghhhh. I dont knowww I suck. johnny and molly are coming up tomorrow to spend the day at the lake ish... maybe that will make me feel a little better.