well life, you've pretty much hit maximum suckage. the short version: ben basically told rob to "break it off" with me?... as if we weren't really done anyway? 2 days later ben calls and wants me to come over.. oh good.. a week later I find out that he said that to rob ... ben continues to be a faggot Mike goes psycho for no reason? because I didn't go pick him up? ben wants to bang.. I say sure.. then he texts and says, " want to hang out tonight instead" and then gave some reason that I didn't reall understand... and I said "sure" tonight... nothing. I was with alexis and stuff all night but its the principle. that he feels he can just not ahhh fucking I don't know. I guess aaron came home today. Is that any reason?.. at all? to not say, "hey aaron's home, can't hang out.. sorry.. " I mean I would have been annoyed.. but I wouldn't have been as annoyed as I am now. I dont understand how he thought I had no idea.. and I don't understand why I still see him.. I don't understand why he .. let alone anyone believes me when I say I dont give a shit about him.. and I don't understand hurt.. this hurt. it's stupid. but the more I don't talk tohim.. the better.. and easier it will get.. I hope. my eyes are killling me. and I need sleep. I hate everyone tonight.. especially ahh fuck. mike. you suck for being a drunk idiot.