whoaa. so much shit has gone down :o.. so I had a thing with Jesse Farrell... that was cute. apparently I was a bit of an asshole... and a bitch... and a little too sarcastic but thats okay because I can also be shallow and say he was a terrible kisser. okay, not terrible but bad enough. I could have tolerated it.. and I actually liked him, I mean me, liking someone, in a non asshole ish way.. wierd.. so anyway... shit ended oh well. I even still kinda like him, maybe, i guess but oh well. so I hung out with matty fagone tonight, what a cutie. he wants to bang.. I don't know about banging... ugh it just seems so sleezy and contrary to what I say I do care about what people think.. ish. so anyway. I don't want to bang him I don't think... nahh. what a horny kid. which brings us to kevin.. hes not even that good looking and I dont know what I see in him but ugh. I want him so bad that its kinda gay. just like ugh. yeah, i want him to call so bad. just like ahhh! but I mean I don't even like him that much... but I want to do stuff with him, you know?...ugh. yawn and I promised myself I wouldn't call him tonight but then I saw him driving and so I did.. but then yeah and he called me back and asked me what I was doing later.. and I said give me a call.. he won't but thats okay. I can't call him tomorrow. I won't let myself. ugh... i am going to restart my computer...