We watched the movie p.s. I love you together tonight. I cried a bunch.. And he cried a little.. And he tried to hide his face. For some reason at that point I realized that I love him so much, that I want to live like that, I want to be his everything and have that bond. And thought of how much I want to know about him.. The things we've never talked about.. I just want to become his life, not just be a part of it. He held me tightly throughout the movie.. He kissed my head.. My hair. I don't know how or why things are like this. I'm so scared and amazed and confused and it all feels lovely. I feel completely comfortable with him. Totally.