ohhh my godddd. fucking ahhh. so honestly, why would I want to go somewhere, where I'm only wanted so I can pick someone up.. bring htem home... transport alcohol... bring them back to the party... then wait around and bring them to portland? SERIOUSLY. like I was being nice by saying I'd fucking bring whoever to portland at 11.30 but to call me and be like we really want you here blah blah blah... and then be like oh, yeah can you drive all over the fucking place so everyone else can party and you can't? and the funny part is ... "well I cant drive because I'd be going ot get my bottle and then I can't drink if I have the car" its like, well awesome... I'm glad I am your DD... and I'm glad you feel you can ask me to do all this shit and only invite me whereever so you'd have rides. not that I would want to be there in the first place. ahhhh and I know thats not the only reason I'm angry, but that's reallllly what put me in this reallly fucking annoyed mood. I'm so tired of being tired and feeling sick.. and these headaches.. these head aches need to go. please. and just let me entire life just die off because everyone sucks, and I hate life and alll you dumb people. wow I almost feel better. my toes are all cut up.. they hurt.. bogie winked at me. HA Ben. Bagels at bens.... wednesday.. saw him for the first time in.. ohhh I don' tknow 2 WEEKS. awesome. that shows how amazing my life is going. not.