well.. I went over just for a bit.. and ... who do you think called benjamin?... his little friendy friend rebecca or renee or some shit like that. how do I know it was her?... 1. he didnt tell me who it was, and he always tells me to reassure me that it's not her.. basically. 2. I know everything. 3. he kept trying to turn the volume down so I couldn't hear. 4. on the phone I heard her say "yeah I saw rob today".. and on my way out.. I saw rob and he said that he saw her today at wendy's. ahahahha fucking HA. I love life . especially when I know things. because I am so fucking amazing at existing. and I want to so bad be like... soo that was her on the phone?.. isn't that special. ahh but damn. I need clarity... I need to know what we're doing / what we are.. and I want to be a real person and go places and do things and ahhh. I don't know. I want him to not suck so bad. freeport tomorrow wit catherine -- :]