well here's the thing, I'm tired. work is kicking my butt. napped with ben tonight.. and last night.. and the night before. just napped. I brought him dinner because he's helpless but he was sweet about it. I dont know what we are .. or what we're doing.. or when I'll see him. this hot and cold thing annoys the hell out of me.. and after I got gas.. all I wanted to do was just go back and lay for a little while longer.. even 25 minutes.. jdghdkfjgh wow do I suck. I need to sleep.. yet I dont wwant to.. I want to go back over.. and sleep with him.. andddd life. I want to have a day off.. that would be nice.. better yet.. I want to have a day off.. where we just lay in bed all day. and be lazy pieces of crap.. and he gets me ice cream because he freaking owes meee.