I got so angry the other night.

I do this every time. I can't stand being around him with other people. I have such serious commitment issues. And this isn't just prevalent in relationships... it happens in life. Plans with friends, family... everything. I can't commit to a fucking college, or a meal, I can't make decisions.

I am the most indecisive person, it's just stupid.

I don't know who or what I want. Some days I am so irritated and uninterested and then, out of no where, I am constantly thinking about him.

So because I am so annoyed by him, do I just give up and end it?

Or, because I get butterflies sometimes when I think about him and how he makes me laugh... that I should just suck it up and put it all on the table?

It is all just too much to think about and deal with.