this is the first time I have written in this from the computer in .. weeks. i usually just do it from my phone, its easier kind of. I'm tired. whats new. ben was supposed to be home when I got there last week.. he wasn't. and I was exhausted.. so I literally just went and layed down and fell asleep and he came home like 40 minutes later and brought me quakes and a card. well, he put them against my back on the bed and since I was sleeping I didn't wake up and he came back in and said HEY you didnt even loook.. so it was a card. it was cute. the envelope said YOU and on the outside of the car it said, it's really pretty simple... and then it said, all I need is you. and he wrote no dieing cutie, just naptime. coming from him, it was monumental. I couldn't stop smiling, at least on the inside. I still kind of smile about it. I was sitting on his stomach today and we were talking about when I looked emaciated a few months ago and blah blah and he asked why and I said that when we werent talking I was having a really hard time with him and the school crap that I just like died. aaron asked him to go out or something and I told him I didn't care if he went, that I would just meet him back at the house later and he was like blah blah yeah right and then we talked about graduation and I told him that I wanted him to be there, that's why I asked. and he said, well I didn't know you wanted me to be there.. and we talked about how I brought it up even though I told him I wouldn't hold it against him that he didn't go and I said well with the other girl things it makes me feel better about myself. and I paused, and said not really. and he said, well who am I with now? and I said yes but how long did it take you to get to that point, and he said too long. bah. the card. awww :]