I was in a great mood today. I felt good. talked to you. that was nice.. just seeing how your eyeballs were doing.. and then you continued to talk. you miss me. I have formed a new view on all this. its better. I'm smiling somehow. I still miss you. I do. so much. but sometime.. soon.. these entries won't be about you anymore.. and after that.. these entries won't exist. I'll go into recession and I won't write anymore. because i wont need to. I won't be hurting. I won't need to vent and write and be mad. soon. love you. so much that it hurts. but its getting better. you miss me. I know you do.