I want to make out in public I want to hold hands... and go out to dinner go to the movies.. and get ice cream I want it to be okay to him.. I want to not want him, because I need someone else. I don't want to assume that we're going to bed. I'm tiredtiredtired of it all. of feeling like there's someone else. and it hurts.. so bad. why isn't there the commitment.. I've committed myself unknowingly. and I need to get away. my wants and needs are such opposites.. I want him.. but I need someone devoted to me. I want sex, but I don't need it.. I want to be happy.. but happyness is inexistant until I make myself happy. fuckkkkkk