3 things; Most importantly, what really happened between myself and Bruce Wetherington. He told me he loved me. I couldn't handle that. I didn't want that. Not at all. I tried talking to him about it, it didn't work. His immaturity and his obsession with making me happy over ruled. He didn't realize that he was making me unhappy by telling me this. He was scaring me. That's why I am making a point to be friends with him. That's why I am trying to become friends with him again. The pain he must have endured when I basically shot him down. And he never gave up. In a sense I admire that but in another I look down on that because he was giving himself more pain. I am sorry Bruce, honestly I am. Matthew, someone that deserves credit, not yet recieved. You are an awesome person that has been there for me. The late nights where I couldn't stop crying you were there to talk to me. For a while you're all I had. Talking me out of doing things that shouldn't be thought about by anyone. You're an awesome person, I will help you get through this babe. I'll be here like you were there for me. I love you man. I don't understand. There's this one person that I have been close with for so many years. He just got out of the youth center (sounds like a great kid ehh?) but in previous times, feelings have come back to me... This time they haven't. I know why, I just don't understand. Or I don't want to admit it. .