dood. I was just kidding. AHHH not even cool. the one person that gets it is fucking up.. horribly. fuckkkk. ahh you get it, my nice little online journal that has my chili peppers and brooklyn bridge on it.. in the rain. happy happy journal.kidding. you'll get this. FUCK. I have completely lost it. I am talking to my journal. AHHH gross. I am an emo piece of crap. AHHH.. oh well, I will go along with it.. just for this entry. ahh so basically I don't look for guys. period. I especially dont look for potential boyfriends. never. not at all. but maybe, just maybe I look for guys that would be good kissers. kidding. okay, maybe not. but I just want a NICE (KEY WORD) guy that I can cuddle. and kiss. that scratches my back. and doesnt want the commitment of ME being HIS girlfriend.. like being together, the term "dating" or "going out" its so much of a title and it drives me nuts. yehh.. not to be all steriotypical or anything but like... most guys are incredibly perverted and want to get in your pants, the others are unbelieveably prude, and untouched, and its a 2nd grade relationship.. and the rest are mature... and arent completely fixated on getting laid... yeah something like that. .. So I sit here, being all emo... in having 2 panic attacks in the last month.. like real ones. like the ones I had last spring when I was sick. and migraines. too much shit. AHH! I am supposed to be having fun, I am a teenager. NOT.. stress.. fuck it all... 6 or so more weeks left.. maybe less.. we get progress reports this week... argh. I am so incredibly tired. I uhh was up all night friday.. ended up being 46 hours straight.. so bad for me.. I felt so sick.. ahh bruce is so adorable!.. he is going to bring flowers to school and have kiera called to the office where he will be waiting for her to come out and will ask her to be with him.. awww. so adorable. hes such a sweet kid. raah why must shit be so dumb.. and complicating... www.myspace.com/dipy eyyy? hasta.