so here's the deal: I'm tiredtiredtired.. as usual.. up too late last night. ben called.... I was doing so well too. I didn't care to see him at all.. as a matter of fact. I didn't want to.. until he called.. then I crumbled. dropped everything for him. and I don't know why... and I've decided. If I really cared that much, I wouldn't have been able to go a week and a half without seeing him.. and same with him. and will.. ahhhh why am I sooo ridiculous... bob dylan tonight.. = HAPPINESS.