johnnny did some thingss and didn't tell me. like nothing, but he told molly. and when he finally sort of brought it up tonight.. I was annoyed that he didn't feel that he could share such things with me.. but then he had to add that he told molly. HE TOLD FUCKING AHHH. Its funny that this upsets me so much.. I wanted to punch something.. its just like ahhh. anddddd I dont know. I'm tired of this ben thing. I've said I want the chase because it entertains me and keeps me occupied butt It's been so long, and we've gotten no where.. and I'm tired of games and chasing and ugh. when johnny and I talk about it..and he tells me to just get rid of it because it makes me even more annoyed with life, I feel like I can just tell him (ben) what I need from all this and tell him I am done with the going weeks without talking thing.. but then when I finally do talk to him, all I want to do is see him, not get angry and fight. fuuuckkk.