happy fucking birthday to me. yay. i am grounded until oct. 25th. yay. no homecoming, nothing. uhhh as if I am not already depressed enough as it is. I can't wait until I take all these sleeping pills and advil.. maybe I will just become this vegetable and I wont think I will just be a body and be able to move my eyes.. that's it. maybe then they'd feel like parents. it's not so much as the fucking punishment but the fact that they only care when I do something wrong. and whatever it is that I do gets blown out of proportion beyond understanding. I love it. I honestly want to spite my parents, plain out. maybe I'll stop eating, or lashing out in school. I wish I could just say fuck school but thats the only thing I have.. the only thing that will get me away from these assholes.I honestly can't do it. Larry's home. he can't see me crying. never.