] spent some time with my mum tonight. it was good. we actually went to a concert. it was great. we talked. she told me i'm too smart for him. too great, why waste it on him? do I really want to take care of him all my life? I told her I dont want puppies (kids).. she said when it's the right person I will want them. I told her I loved him. and told her for now he is the right person.. kimbo the clown died sunday. wow. who saw that coming. I'm so upset. again with the crying shit. very sad. god knows if I ever had a child too young, if I ever had a child for anyone in this world it would have been for her. mum said when she talked to nick he said she had such a good life and it just mae my mom cry and cry... she thought how? all she wanted was a baby, and she didnt get one... she was sick. she was 43... how is that a good life? she lived with my parents... she was my mom's best friend. oh my lord.