I talked to him today... he texted me.. he has conjunctivitus (?).. ahahh KARMA. but for real. I love him. and I miss him. and I am okay.. I am. but I just... when we talk its like.. us. and we both still care about eachother.. so much. and I just don't understand why its like this.. why we're like this. I don't know.. talking to him put me in a good mood but it also .. I don't know. I was doing well with the whole not talking. its beeen. since monday.. so 4 dayys. thats so long for us. I miss him but I'm really just... okay... I am. we joke.. and thats good.. and we have this joke.. under my.. ass.. theres like this white strip from tanning and he calls it "pie" cause its shaped like a piece of pie.. I guess.. and I told him it got burnt and he said oh noooo and I said some things and he said something about aloe and he was like yeah I'd put it on for you.. with my cock. I was like perfect. you can do that right after you put it in my but!. last week I told him he could put it in my but.. right after we got back together and I stopped losing weight.. so it was funny. like it was good to laugh about something.. i just want him to see that.. we need to be together.. I don't even knowwwws. and he said something about texting and how he only texts meee and thats good and I just. fuck why can't he see that .. we just.. need to be together ahhhhaha. wow. but I'm okay. really. Iknow he thinks about me... and still cares.. and I just.. I don't know I can't really ask for anything else. he shattered me.. and now I have to pick up the pieces... and thats hard. before.. there wouldn't be pieces to pick up. he would just scoop me up whole and it would all e okay. fuck. he still makes me smile. and thats hard. he still has control and thats even harder