I graduated. I'm done. Its been a week and it still hasn't hit me. I went to orientation and I, in all honesty did not absolutely hate it. But I don't know how I'm going to leave. I don't know how I will get through it. Sometimes I feel like, if love isn't strong enough or important enough to hold me back, then what is? I mean love is like the ultimate experience and when you're all caught up in it, why kill it? I know I have to go. I know I can't stay. Or take him with me. I almost don't want summer because summer means working and its all going to go by so fast and soon its going to be the day before I have to leave and I am not going to be ok or in control. I need to focus on now. Not then. Here and now. He's so cute.