hey life, you can stop sucking me off for a living. kthanks. school makes me tired. thinking about school makes me tired. college.. sat IIs.. my back sucking.. my head hurting.. tired tired tired. ben too, he makes me tired. It's such a shame that life exhausts me, it really is. I need school to be over.. and summer and beach and my life to not be fuckkked and car.. and bumper.. and money and ahh I'm having an anxiety filled week. and it's only tuesday. I keep thinking it's wednesday, all day I would think it's wednesday, and realize it was tuesday.. but then an hour later... wednesday again. ahhh. I want to go out to dinner... or something hold hands... or something be normal... or something how about a little happiness.. or something? actually, you know what made me happy.. cameron. cameron came into IGA last night.. when I saw him through the window ahhh! I haven't seen him in forever. big hug time. I asked him what he was doing, he said he was driving by and saw my car. biggg smiles. He looked upset, emily just broke up with him so he was ehhh. she said he needed to like himself before they could be in a relationship. sad. I told him it was alright, we can date, and he can hate himself all he wanted. he smiled. love love love cameron