its funny that I ended things, and I'm still crying.

It's sad because I have done nothing but mess around for months and I am still upset.

Four years... i just closed the door to the last four years of my life and I am in a way devasated.

I know I deserve better, and better will come but I love him. I don't want to be with anybody else. so should I hang onto it and ignore the fact that most people can't change?