I have discovered this sensation of reciprocation. It's amazing really... wanting to spend every second with him. In his lap.. wrapped around him. But he's just as insecure as I am which has proved to be positive (at least in this case). He had a horrible dream last night and kind of woke me up. He was really shaken up about it.. he asked me if I only wanted him. What I should have asked in response is how could I want anyone else... In all honestly how could I want anyone else at this point? Not now, not with how things are going and how he makes me feel.

We've had the conversation a couple times about sex. We both were concerned and wondered whether or not it was just about the sex. It's incredible. The chemistry we have is just out of this world; there truly aren't words.

I feel lucky that he is a part of my life. It's strange because I haven't yet begun to pull away... he's leaving and that's that. We will cross that bridge when it comes because why ruin something that makes us both unbelievably happy. And I truly feel that he feels the same way.