This is me not sleeping.. clearly. 430? what the fuck?

I was happy to be rolling into bed at 2 am last night.. Even more happy with what I was doing. I had no idea it could be THAT enjoyable. Not as if I haven't had great sex before.. but it's a little different when you are both physically and intellectually attracted to the person. It's strange to say that this is some of the best sex, but the connection is just there. we honestly can't keep our hands off each other. I don't know how else to explain it.. it seems so ridiculous and fake and vomit inducing like that couple you can't stand because they are so obsessed with each other.. but it's true.

I hope to hell I am not reading this situation wrong, he mentions things once in a while.. how good it is.. how good of a time we have together. And the minute I see him I want to shove him in the backseat of the car or into the bathroom.. but I think we have an understanding; we both appreciate each other and appreciate and understand the situation. Neither of us are using or objectifying.

We went for a ride in my new car last night, we talk like normal people. hold conversations.. he had his hand on my leg while we were in the car.. At this point there are no expectations but I am really enjoying this.. and anything that takes my mind off of all the drama that is Ben is a wonderful thing!