mom got me a card today that says "guess who loves you today" and on the inside she wrote "Better days are coming, I promise. Love Mom" she might be the gayest person on earth, but she cares, and listens, and sees that I'm struggling. No one else does. No one else gets it. my 2 best friend dont talk to me anymore. Just dont talk, and ben, he just can't understand.. I'm not willing to tell him or explain it to him.. I'm just so hurt. betrayed. sometimes I think, who needs them, and others its like, how could you do this to me? and why... what would motivate you act so terribly to me. oh god I just don't want to deal with it anymore. fuck. I have no one. I have ben. and thats it. fuck. fuck them.