ahhh clean sheets make me ridiculously happy. okay. now that we've gotten that settled... tonight.. haha. fuck. well I just wanted to lay low and be lazy.. and I took a nap around 4 and woke up at like 530 on account of stupid dreams.. looked at my phone, nothing. wiggled the little mouse thingy on the laptop.. and there's ben.. "why arent I in you right now?" .. quite the charmer, I know. after a shower and some arguing.. and driving ades around.. and more arguing.. I headed over.. while on highland I get a text saying.. oh this is good.. "change in plans I'm going out with aaron rob and ashley want to come over after?"... my response.. "no." then came "haha ok".. so of course I couldn't stop myself and I said, "I am not going to drop everything so you can be a tool 2 nights in a row " and I think I said something else.. but I don't remember.. and then before he said anything I said, "all I want is sex, it's not that difficult." and then he said something unimportant and that was that. so I was mad. quite mad as a matter of fact. so I drove.. rather fast.. and listened to some rage.. rather loud.. and went to alexis's. after some serious donkey konga.. and sitting in will's car while he was in shaw's.. I get a text.. "well I came home earlier than they id ifyour not busy or still interested" I said no I hate you, and he said "haha I hope you don't hate me" and I said no, I really do though. and he said haha then forget it, stay home. I hate that he says "haha" before he says anything.. there was nothing funny about that conversation. but I said "nah" and then a little while later said "i'll be there in a few" so I went.. and I was so unhappy with him.. and just blah about the whole thing.. so I wasn't all too into the banging.. but then it got better.. and by the time we were done ish. it was 1130 and I had to go get lare so I was like I'll see you later, and said ohh bye?.. and I could tell he didn't understand why I was leaving.. almost upset?.. I don't know. almost a good time. but I'm exhausted.