I'm a little bit tired. and so unmotivated it's pathetic. I've been trying to read this book, that is actually really good!.. for weeks. and I just don't read it. and I love to read... I just am so blah. two opportunities I've missed to see ben, ebcause my phone is crap. andd i haven't seen him since friday. It's wednesday. what the fuck?.. rahhh. s loves me. He pretty much wanted to bang. I pretty much said no. I don't know. rahhh. and he thinks that I get mad at him?.. when I don't. and he seems rather.. insecure.. and I don't know. I just don't know if I can do that. I don't want to. at all. arghhh