I hate it when people assume things .. in a general sense. and I hate people who dont shower every day.. it just annoys me... so bad. and people assume things.. like assume that I wanna "make out" orr "bang" its like.. no... and if I wanted to... I would, how about that? its like, ahhh. and honestly.. I don't want anything to do with anyone.. I hate relationships for a reason.. a very good and legitimate reason at that. I woke up this morning.. 730.. lord knows why.. and couldn't roll over and go back to sleep like usual. wide awake. so I went for a run.. it was good.. really good. my hip is broken.. and is a painful reminder of why I don't run anymore.. but that's okay. I felt good after.. old port with tristan.. ahhh he's kind of an idiot.. saw everyone in the world.. that was cute.. I was so busy today.. it was good though.. need to get my own car.. need to work on thattt.. but good busy.. like, hiii you dont exist .. the sick thing is, I don't know if I'll be able to just not talk to him altogether.. like I wish I could, because I know talking.. won't get me anywhere.. and I know I will probably just give in. and it sucks. and If I give in to talking to him.. then I will probably give in to seeing him.. and I can blame it on the sex all I want.. but a part of me isn't going just for that.. but honestly, I'd much rather he think thats why, I don't want to give him the satisfaction of thinking.. let alone knowing.. that I thought twice about him.. or even cared.. at all. he doesn't need to know that. I'm always the cold hearted one.. always.. I never care.. nothing hurts me, I hurt other people. that's how it is. that's how it needs to seem. life. ahahahha. I felt so good this morning, where did that go?