hahahha fucking ha. molly was so happy last night, I loveddd it. she said she was so happy to like someone.. and it wasn't will ahhh. it's so good. I need to be like that. jumping around all smiles..and everything.. literally appearing to be on something.. why can't I have that... really though. I don't think Ben is what I need.. maybe want.. but ahh. last night I was looking at all the people and it was like fuckinga. whats the point of all this when he's not there... fuckers. I need more sleep. and I need someone else. ahhh calvin baby ... this week was horrible. beyond understanding. and I'm so exhausted from it. but it brought a lot of us together.. me and dylan are really good right now, he was really there.. right next to me.. and eli and cameron and ahh I don't know. what a horrible way to come together.. but it was good. we needeed eachother.. and everyone was there.