We have this kind of relationship where things aren't awkward or weird. Things aren't complicated or messy. Everything is simple, the boundaries are clear, and the goals are mutual. He gives me the attention he knows I crave.. and because it is so simple.. because there are no strings attached, we have a level of honesty that you don't see even in relationships. We connect in a way.. not just sexually but intellectually. I can be myself. There's a level of comfort with him, that took months and months with Ben. Oh god and the sex. wow. It's the kind of exhausting, crazy, endless sex that happens in movies.. The laughing, the holding down, the wiggling, the yelling, the talking... And the hotel last night... king size bed... all white sheets.. phenomenal. I don't know what's going on with me.. what's going through my head.