dang i don't feel good right now. my tummy hurts. i feel like i may throw up. i get this way a lot. bah whatever. i've been all lazy and sleeping a lot lately. like a lot a lot. like if i'm bored i sleep. i should keep busy instead. i'm no longer depressed so that's good. haven't hooked up with anyone in awhile. like a month i think. i still kind of want a boyfriend so i won't feel like i'm someone's fuck buddy. i start working soon so that will keep me busy. i want to be on my own and living on my own...but i would really miss my family. i have all these friends with crazy parents and crazy home lifes...mine just isn't like that. they need to move out and gain some freedom. why do i want to leave? or do i even want to leave? maybe instead of moving out i'll get a new car. that would be nice. but not having any bills would be nicer? meh i don't know. dang this is my first sober night in awhile. is it a bad thing that i see drinking as something that brings people together? hung out with a friend from highschool for a couple nights in a row. we drank and talked and just had fun in general. i adore her. awesome chick. didn't realize how much i miss certain people (like her). work monday...work makes me fat, lol. seriously, having to go out to lunch everyday during my break, ugh. i'm usually at home sleeping and not eating at that hour ya know. i was supposed to go on this trip but now that i'm working i don't feel like taking the time off, and the guy i was supposed to go with seems mad at me. whatever. or maybe not, i don't know. doot doot doot. i'm so bored. i need to study. stupid college. blah. i don't think i'll go next semester. just work and save money for something. move out? car? a trip of some sort? whateva. ha ha i'll probably spend each check as soon as i get it like i did last time i worked. good times, good times. i think i'll go clean my room and then go for a run. yep, i'm bored.