so its been over a month since i've updated and there's a lot i could talk about but i'll give u the quick version on most of it. k7 has done shitty things, and G22 has done more shitty things. G22 tried to take advantage of me. like dragged me to my room and i had to tell him to stop about 5 times before he finally let me go. then he tried to win me back by texting me christmas eve saying he had a gift for me and wanted to come over...i told him only if he promised he wouldn't try anything yadda yadda. several texts back and forth til he was like nevermind why bother if u won't fool around with me...so basically i had to have sex with him to get said gift. yeah fuckin' right buddy. and K7lied to me and acted like the sweetest guy in the world and i was all his again...then never called. BUT none of that matters now because i think i've finally found the one and only nice guy in riverside. i'll call him K24. he's actually a friend of K7's but no he's not like him at all. we went to school together but never hung out or talked. he's hot, was a jock (just like every other guy i fall for i know), etc. we know a lot of the same people and have even hooked up with eachothers friends. anyways, he saw me driving and was like dang she looks good, and my name came up in conversation and he asked K7 for my number. he called me right away and i've talked to him everyday (mostly texts). i had trouble trusting him at first but i really do think he's genuine. he'll be 22 next month, and he's a volunteer fire fighter. yeah i know, that's fuckin' hot! he knows my brother...well then again everone knows my brother. so we went to my bro's wife's friends house on new years eve and he actually asked my bro for permission to date me. that alone won me over. my brother told him not to break my heart. i think if he weren't serious he would have avoided all contact with my brother, as he's big and scary. i've never had a guy make me feel like i was this special, like i meant something. most guys leave me feeling inadequate and worthless. we did hook up on new years eve night (new years morning...whatever)...kind of caught up in the moment or something. i told him that we weren't going to hook up again for awhile because i wanted to do things right, date first and what not. he's respected that so far. but god he drives me crazy! the sexual attraction is absolutely incredible. the sex was great for that one night we did hook up. i feel like i need to get my life in order though. i mean he's going to be a fireman wtf am i going to be? he called me today to tell me that he's thinking of me. this all might not sound like much to any of you, but guys don't treat me well...like, ever. if you follow my diary you know that. the first night we hung out we drank at my apartment then he took me to dennys and bought me dinner...the most any guys ever bought me is alcohol. now all he has to do is buy me a fuckin' flower and i'm his ha ha. i could talk about him forever but i think my dinner's getting cold. late.