i think J18 got me sick. he had a little cough last time we had hooked up...so yeah. i feel like shit. he wants to come over this week and watch boogie nights (because i've never seen it and he offered to bring it over) and drink...yeah of course he does! i can't blame him for wanting to hang out with a girl who puts out. but i actually like him so i don't know what to do. he's one of the most genuinely nice guys i have ever met, so i know that if i just be up front with him and ask him what his intentions are, he would tell me the truth. the problem with that is i don't know if i want to know the answer. what if it's more casual for him than it is for me? blah. anyways the point of this entry is that i don't want to hang out with him this week because i feel like crap. plus i'm inbetween bikini waxes and would rather wait til payday so i can get waxed. ha ha i'm so considerate. boy can eat for days so i should be. yeah no one needed to know that but my diary is full of that kinda of stuff so why stop now. ok done.