so G22 came over to bring me my cd yesterday morning...i was hell bent on not hooking up with him but that boy doesn't know the meaning of no or stop. i eventually gave in. i talked to him online afterwards and had mentioned that i thought all he wanted from me was sex...and he was like i dont want a relationship but i dont want just sex. which to me sounds like bullshit. i said i had to go then signed off and texted him telling him i cant come over next week like i had said i would earlier. i am so tired of guys not wanting anything more than sex from me. he was like nah ur coming over. i was like no i'll drop off ur sweater (he left it here) but i can't stay sorry. and later that night he texted me and was like "ur coming over friday. just because i don't want a relationship doesn't mean i don't want to date you." i didn't respond, but agreed this morning to come see him friday afterall. it's hard to be around him because he's so forceful. i do enjoy hooking up with him, but i hate that it like has to happen. like would we hang out if we werent hooking up? no. K7 called me last night too. he was like what are u doing? and i was all watching t.v...then his phone either died or he hung up on me. he didn't call back. it was weird. i seriously think i have to have someone in my life treating me like shit at all times. i couldn't let go of K7 until G22 came along. i need attention from men. i hate that i do, but i really do. ugh. it would be nice if i got the right kind of attention, but that never seems to happen. i met a new guy the other night. he's about 26 years old and i met him through my roomate. he bought me drinks (yes i know i'm trying to drink less but i went out and drank). he called me yesterday but i didn't answer and never called him back. an older more mature guy would be nice for once, but i don't think i'd allow myself to get involved with a nice guy. it's like i purposely seek out these ass holes instead. eh whatever.