i suddenly got really sad and lonely. i want a boy for more than the physical. i could be hooking up with C9 right now but i turned him down. gently of course. told him that i'm currently abstaining. which i'm not but whatever. i don't want him. i don't know who/what i want. i need a hug. hug meee. meh, i'm fine. just need some affection. not sex, just a really good hug. i like my job still, the people are nice. i currently have 5 books and 1 dvd on hold until payday. my poor poor paychecks. they go so fast. anyone want to give me money? for free. please feel free to do so. this entry was really lame. oh i went out friday night and got good and drunk. then got lost on the way home. no worries. life is fun. i like living. someone come hang out with me i'm bored as fawk! ok done. comment me! please, me=bored.